Some days are filled with me trying to put words together so that you can fully understand the treasure that I have found. What good parent doesn't want what is best for their child? I know you do. I know that as you raised me you worked hard so that I had food on the table, a roof over my head, and a smile on my face. Even when that meant that after a long day of work you would come home to make two meals. One for everyone that liked what you cooked (brussels sprouts and liver) and one for me to enjoy because I have always been a picky eater. Being picky is not something that I am proud of, but it is something that has taught me the love that you have for me. Even now, when Daniel and I visit, you are always sure to consider the vegan ways and make me something delicious and homey. I want you to know that I appreciate that and all of the other sacrifices (known and unknown) that you have made for me. That you have made because you love me. Your love and desire to see me be successful are what have brought me to write to you today.
Do you remember when I was younger and we would argue? We couldn't seem to agree on something and therefore we separated ourselves due to the argument. And sometimes when we couldn't speak because our misunderstanding would blow up, we would write one another a letter. Well, think of this as a letter through the internet. One that I can look back on, and so can you. Not one that stems out of anger, but one that is rooted in wanting you to smile and rejoice. It is also for me, so that when I fail to remember these things, I can look here and I myself can smile.
What a treasure I have found! He may not be tall, dark, and handsome.. but he is short, dark, and handsome. : ) -Just the way I like it!- He is full of compassion, patience, kindness, consideration, and adventure. He is not perfect, he is not just like me, and he does not like to make me a separate meal just because I am picky. Yet, somehow.. someway, he is more perfect for me than I could ever have imagined. When I yell, he wants to hold me and tell me that he loves me. When I am upset, he tries to make me laugh. When my heart longs for companionship, he brings me on a date and buys me ice-cream. When I am sad about how we argue, he reminds me of all of the wonderful moments that we have shared. And when I tell him that I am excited for him to one day be a dad, he smiles and dreams with me as we pull out our small stash of future baby clothes.
My husband is an adventurer and a lover of our King. He is not rich and he does not care much for a "regular" career. And if one day I am living with food in my belly and clothes on my body, but nothing else, I want you to know this... I will be happy! It is not our desire to make a ton of money, to live in a fancy house, or to have the perfect life. Yes, those things are comforting, but we know that it is not the life that God promises. Jesus had no place to lay his head. And he doesn't promise us a comfy bed and a warm shower. Yet for 26 years He has been faithful and generous to us in giving us these things. For us, every pay check and contract is a blessing, not an expectation. It's a realization of God's grace and mercy. Time after time, He has provided EXACTLY what we needed when we needed it. Just in time to feed the dogs, pay the bills, or go on a trip. He is faithful.
And this is one HUGE reason that I LOVE MY HUSBAND. I love Daniel because he is more concerned with loving God and understanding God's heart, than pleasing this world and having all of the comforts that the US has made "normal". He also recognizes that it is not because we are talented enough, good enough, business minded enough, that we survive and thrive. It is simply because Christ, in His mercy gave us out of the abundance of His love, what we need and want. I smile because God is good. I smile because He provided me with a great family and a husband that treasures His word.
Are you smiling? I hope you are! Because you raised a little girl that will forever be cherished! I am cherished by you, by Daniel, and by the creator of the entire universe! And you are cherished by me, by Daniel, and by the creator of the universe. We are incredibly loved. And I am incredibly thankful for the man that you now get to call your son-in-law.
Love him well for me mom! : ) My desire is that you would always share with him the beauty of your heart, the gentleness of your love, and the richness of your encouragement. I'm so grateful for you both.
Your little girl,